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| I was afraid this might happen... Before i left for the UK i was
questioning if producing and deejaying was really what i wanted to do.
So far it's been awesome, but still not to the point where i'm
disciplined enough to practice or make tracks as a daily thing. If it's
something you love shouldn't you feel the need to do so? I know ppl
that can't stop producing. They're like machines where they just spit
out tracks. And here i am, so far away from home not using my time
wisely. It's not even like i'm out partying, im just doing jack @ home
procrastinating.I know i can't live without music but i think i can
live without making music.... = / I don't know, maybe it's the
loneliness of living on my own lol My thoughts are just occupying too
much of my time it's eating me away.
I've been picking up
dance again, just trying to mix up my freestyle. I'm finally gonna
start taking classes w/ avant grande. I've always love to boogie, it's
a sense of being. Maybe i got that confused with playing tunes? Maybe i
just wanted to make ppl feel the same way the DJs made my feet move?
But could i really live my life as a "dancer"? Isn't it a little late?
lol I've never had training, starting when im 21...? I dunno... = /
Argh.. what the hell do i want!? I'd also be happy just working a
normal jane kinda job back @ home. Get to be with fam and my baby boi,
watching my hockey, chillin' with my friends i grew up with (the people
i feel the most comfortable with). I'm really bad @ making new friends
haha. I love the ppl i've met here in the UK but i think they did most
of the work. lol
I'm also really thinking about moving to L.A
after i grad. I was always planning to, but just not so soon. I think
it would be the perfect spot for me. I get to do my music, maybe get an
A&R position @ a major label (hopefully). Then i also be in the
city with amazing dance instructors. And i get to fukin SURF! The
feeling when you're riding a wave is indescribable. I'd also be closer
to home, 2 hr flight. Sigh.. I dunno, for now i just really need to get
back to my music. I have like 5 unfinished tracks. 3 hip-hop & 2
house tunes.. I need to get my ass going again and finish them!!! I can
decide all this later or will it be too late? | | |
| the long awaited track from me is up!
i finally finished a song and i love it.. its my baby so let me know what you think.. even if you don't dig it. thanks = )
ooo. almost time for HOME.. HELLLL YESS!!
so much food,weed, love (from my son) to be consumed.. i'll be home soon baby boy!!!!
"Maybe surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
I’m lucky I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I’ve got to go home"
- "Home" - Michael Buble
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| i am canadian
i miss my family n friends.
i miss driving on the left side.
i miss the fresh air.
i miss getting everywhre in less than 15 mins.
i miss not being looked at differently cuz im chinese.
i miss cheap good food.
i miss people understanding my "canadian" accent.
i miss BC bud.
i miss SOBE green tea.
i miss my great selection of tv.
i miss the beautiful west coast.
i miss the beaches i took granted for.
i miss bbqs in the summer.
i miss being able to buy copied ps2 games. lol
most of all.. i miss being CANADIAN
oh and im moving in tomorrow.. yay. i'll post pics up of my flat when im done. | | |
| im still alive.
lol.. for all the ppl that thought i was missing.. unfortunately for you guys im still alive. haha
i've just been super busy since the guy fuked me over.. looking for flats and shyt.. and my msn hasn't been working on these fukin connections for so long.. its fuked up.. and whenever i had time to actually call.. the time difference screws everything up..
anyways.. so i've found another place. how ironic that its right across from the other one.. krazy.. but its good because its so damn close to the train.. i can go to london way easier hahaha.. can't wait till i can move to london.. fuk guildford is actually MORE expensive.. isn't that weird???? i found an apartment thats monsterrrr huge.. 1 station away from waterloo.. and its the same price in guildford.. but on the other hand.. i might want to live in guildford so i can drive and so that alph can come live with me.. most of the apartments in london don't allow pets.. so we'll see.. my son is more important.
just did all my furniture shopping today @ ikea.. just missing a couch still.. theres a corner one that i saw thats super cheap right now.. well for that kinda couch.. my mom really wants me to get it.. but its lime green.. its alright.. but i prefer brown or black.. not sure .. i might just go for the green.. its not bad.. and its cheap!
alright.. well thats it for now.. im fukin at an internet cafe since we're staying at some bed & breakfast... which is like someone's house.. lol.. its cheap.. and we can't move in until sunday.. but i know this time we won't get screwed cuz we got shyt on paper ..
if anyone needs me. you can reach me at my temporary #.. +44 07919022207
just to clarify again.. i am ALIVE.. lol | | |
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